I've been thinking about Candice's transition, and what that process is gonna look like.
I have no way of actually being prepared. I'd like to think I am as prepared as possible, but I know the actuality of it will look different then I can imagine.
I love her, no matter what. She makes me feel a way that no one else ever has or could, but I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little nervous.
Candice is beautiful. All the time. It's nothing about the way she will look. It's about the way our relationship will be.
I'm afraid of our roles changing. Of Candice feeling like she needs to take on a traditional female role, and want me to take on a traditional male role. I don't think that will happen. Mostly because we already are pretty balanced in that department- but it's still a real fear of mine.
I am afraid of our relationship changing. We are perfect now. And everything works so well- I am afraid of that changing. I know these fears are probably irrational, and just an overreaction.
I know that I have been running on overdrive in my brain, and that that is making things worse.
I know in my heart, that no matter what, as long as we are together- we will be fine.
I need to remind myself of that.
As long as we are together- we will be fine...no matter what.