Tuesday, June 30, 2009

some pics. :)

Thought i would share some more pictures. i don't know much to write right now. probably have too much on my mind... or something.... who knows. :)

Sunday, June 28, 2009

questioning and wondering

i would be lying if i said i wasn't a little thrown off when Cameron told me about Candice, and about the role it played in his life. I was cautious and nervous as to what i was getting myself into. Was i going to go down this road with him, for however long, and then wake up one day to him telling me he wanted to be a girl full time... and if that was the case, how was i going to respond? Cameron has assured me over and over again that he wants to always remain as Cameron and Candice, not one or the other. Because he says they are both a huge part of who he is. What i have learned about myself and my love for him, is that if he were one day to decide to be Candice full time, that i would still be right by his side. Because i am in love with who he is, and he is always the same amazing person whether he is wearing pants or a dress. As it is right now, i am pretty much the luckiest person in the world. I get the best of both worlds, wrapped up in one phenomenal person. i can't imagine my life without cameron, or candice. They both play such a huge role in my life, and in making me the person i am today. I would be sad for either one of them to ever go away, but i know in my heart, that if that were to happen, i would still be with him. No matter what- i am in this 100%, and that will never change. feeling like this, has been the most amazing feeling i have ever had. Life throws curveballs all the time, and there are so many moments where i am unsure, and unknowing about what lies before me, but i always am sure of one thing... my love for him. i can always rely on that, and honestly, thats what gets me threw most days. :)

Friday, June 26, 2009

Pride 2009

pride 2009.
me and candice's first time. :) it was super amazing. We were super lucky, because Pride was being held within walking distance of our home. So we got up early and got ready, and walked the like 6 blocks or so to pride. We got there early, which was a good thing. :)
This event was a pretty big deal. It was not only our first Pride together, but it was the first time Candice has gone out in the daylight, let alone WALKING there. It was a pretty amazing time, and i know we both had a lot of fun. It felt amazing to be out at the park on a beautiful summer day with my girlfriend, and have no one question it or anything. amazing. I already can't wait for next year. I just really think Candice should be one of the girls with the tiaras in the cars! she is way too pretty not to be!!!

the first time...

I figured i should start this thing off the right way, a picture of me and the man of my dreams. Yes, i said man, and yes that is him in the picture. My name is Chelsea, (left) and my boyfriend/girlfriend is Candice. The rollercoaster ride i am on with her started a little over a year ago. i'll share a bit of it...

I had spent 4 years being alone, not willing to settle for the right person, and not willing to waste time weeding them out, i knew he would come along. I met a wonderful guy named Cameron. I pretty much was head over heels within a few weeks. He just felt right. Cameron told me about 2 months into "dating" that he was transgendered. We were at a coffee shop here in Sacramento, when he pulled out his laptop and showed me a picture. I stared at the screen, looking at one of the most beautiful girls i have ever seen. i knew in my head that this picture was indeed Cameron, but it took awhile to register, and when it did all i said was "do you do your own make-up?" to which he responded "yes", i said "you're eyeliner is amazing" slight silence took place, but not much. it didn't take him long to start asking me how i felt about it, and what i was thinking. and the truth is, i didn't know what i was thinking. and i didn't know the answer to that for awhile. the only thing i did know, was that i still cared for him, and didn't think any different. we went through lots of conversations, before he decided to dress for me in person. When i saw him, in person, there was no doubt in my mind that i didn't care at all. In fact, i knew at that point that i wanted to spend a LOT more time with him. I had been waiting to be weirded out by it, and that feeling never came, which told me, that he was the right person, the person worth my time, the one i had been waiting for.

I could write about this forever, and it could be a really really long story, and i think its a good one, however i do intend to get other people reading this, (hopefully on a consistent basis) and if i drag the story out for as long as it really is, you will lose interest and never come back.

the important thing is that within a month of him telling me, i was in love with him, and in this for the long haul.

our life together is amazingly important to me, and i will continue to write more about it, and share the stories(they are amazing) because i think they are important for others to know. My hope for this blog is to make it a safe place for other transgender people and those in relationships with them, and people in general to maybe learn a little whatt being transgendered or being with someone who is transgendered is all about. I hope that my life with Candice and me writing about can help people out there who are going through similar things. and lastly, i hope that people have fun here... and aren't shy. i am open to all questions, and what not. Enjoy Candice & Me. :)