Sunday, June 28, 2009

questioning and wondering

i would be lying if i said i wasn't a little thrown off when Cameron told me about Candice, and about the role it played in his life. I was cautious and nervous as to what i was getting myself into. Was i going to go down this road with him, for however long, and then wake up one day to him telling me he wanted to be a girl full time... and if that was the case, how was i going to respond? Cameron has assured me over and over again that he wants to always remain as Cameron and Candice, not one or the other. Because he says they are both a huge part of who he is. What i have learned about myself and my love for him, is that if he were one day to decide to be Candice full time, that i would still be right by his side. Because i am in love with who he is, and he is always the same amazing person whether he is wearing pants or a dress. As it is right now, i am pretty much the luckiest person in the world. I get the best of both worlds, wrapped up in one phenomenal person. i can't imagine my life without cameron, or candice. They both play such a huge role in my life, and in making me the person i am today. I would be sad for either one of them to ever go away, but i know in my heart, that if that were to happen, i would still be with him. No matter what- i am in this 100%, and that will never change. feeling like this, has been the most amazing feeling i have ever had. Life throws curveballs all the time, and there are so many moments where i am unsure, and unknowing about what lies before me, but i always am sure of one thing... my love for him. i can always rely on that, and honestly, thats what gets me threw most days. :)

1 comment:

  1. thank you i have never been with anyone as amazing as you are thank you for excepting me to find someone so excepting is amazing