Tuesday, September 21, 2010
it's been awhile
and i miss my girlfriend...a lot... it's been a long time since me and Candice went out. It's been a long time since i have blogged as well...probably because of the lack of us going out. Things have been a little hectic. New jobs and planning a wedding tend to take up a lot of time. but i miss her. a lot. and i miss us. and our time together... sometimes i feel guilty, like maybe i make candice go away, or make cameron not want to be candice...because i get needy, and whiney sometimes. and to be honest...sometimes i get scared. Sometimes i feel like i am holding Cameron back from really truly being who he wants to be, and who he is. Sometimes i feel that Cameron does want to be Candice full time, and as much as i am okay with that, and would here no matter what- i feel like he never would do it, or admit it. It's definitely a unique situation- not something one usually has to think about- but to me, it's very real. I would be by Cameron's side no matter what- and i hope he truly knows that... because its who is that i am in love with.